I have a couple stories on my mind tonight…
First story is from the
Bible. Moses. Who doesn’t love this story? Moses rescued by Pharaoh’s own daughter, raised by her, in Pharaoh’s own house. Later, he had to confront Pharaoh – whom he must have personally known– commanding him to set all his slaves (and probably his livelihood) free. Talk about family issues… I can’t even imagine how difficult this would have been. And yet, even though Pharaoh said no, and no way, and not a chance… Moses didn’t give up. You know the rest of the story, Moses kept at it. Sure of himself that he was doing the Lord’s errand. He was doing the right thing. And eventually, the Israelites were freed. But still not without opposition, in the form of an ocean!! I don’t remember anywhere in the story where Moses doubted his duty or what he needed to do. He just did it. And when he hit a road block, he used his faith to call down the Powers of Heaven. It was as simple as that.
Second story is from the
Book of Mormon. For those who aren’t familiar, this is a religious record of the people in the America’s… from long ago. One of the prophets in the Book of Mormon is named Nephi. It is his story I am thinking about tonight as well. Nephi and his family escape Jerusalem, his father being a prophet who was being sought by King Laban. Before they traveled over to the “Promised Land" (the Americas) God asks Nephi's father, Lehi, to send his sons back to get the sacred record kept by the king. Nephi readily agrees, because it is the right thing to do. His brothers? Not so much. In fact, they give Nephi quite a hard time about it. At one point nearly killing him. But Nephi never doubted what he was supposed to do. After one failed attempt, he thought of another plan. Then after that failed attempt, he thought of another. Until, on the third try, he did as the Lord had asked, and retrieved the sacred record.
So here is my question… my thought. How do these men NOT doubt what they are supposed to do? Granted, they were prophets and had a pretty clear connection to God, but still...
Bringing these scripture stories into my life, and applying them to my current circumstances, how do I get that kind of faith? The kind where I know, 110% what I need to be doing and nothing, no road block, will keep me from that.
Sure, there are some things that it is automatic for… defending my God, my family, my religion. Adhering to covenants I have made, etc.
But what about a choice between two good things. What about when you have made a heart wrenching
decision to leave those you love and move with your family to a new home? When a road block comes, how do I not doubt myself? With any decision, for that matter, how do I not doubt myself?
I know a few things. And one, for sure, is that God is in charge of our lives. And another, is that He knows who I am and what I need. I just really wish I could see the big picture right now.
So, tonight, our new home sits in limbo. And I am trying to figure out in my mind, what on earth is going on. But there is a quiet feeling, deep in my heart, that gives me peace. The peace of knowing the Lord is in charge.
My all time favorite quote is from one of the Prophets of our church President Harold B. Lee: “By faith in God you can be attuned to the Infinite and by power and wisdom obtained from your Heavenly Father harness the powers of the universe to serve you in your hour of need in the solution of problems too great for your human strength or intelligence” (Church News, 15 Aug. 1970, p. 2).